Monday, October 30, 2006
7-Up and more - 1:44 PM
Andrea did this meme and so I follow:7-Up:
Was a: girl 2 heads taller than everyone in class, hardly soft-spoken, always bickering with the boys in the class. was selected to be monitress, and then later a prefect PURELY based on height...good choice, cos I had the ability to make people shut up. Some things never change, do they? I was also super good at rope-skipping and games, and singlehandedly helped my class win the Primary school post-exam skipping competition. WAHHAHAHHAHA.
Dreamt of being: a teacher, a singer (mayyyyybe, not sure)
Fell in love with: canteen food. which was the beginning of an EXTREMEEEELY long affair. sigh.
Coveted: being teacher's pet, and the nice things my classmates owned, including tom and jerry schoolbags, cutsy water bottles, and kawaii coin pouches.
14-up:
Was a: girl with 2 sides: the 1st: a Stern, no-nonsense, see-me-and-kowtow Captain who commandered respect from all angles. the 2nd: the goofy one in class who made people laugh, and the one who still cried at piano lessons. Had such extreme confidence that it could easily be depicted as arrogance. Made new classmates pee in their pants cos they thought I was so fierce. WAHHAHA.
Dreamt of being: Rich and famous. For real.
Fell in love with: Myself. And realized that even if no one else loves you, you still have to love yourself.
Coveted: weight loss and smooth skin....so I have a higher chance of rich and famous. And then quickly realised its NOT happenninggggg.
21-up:
Was a: student studying hospitality in America. Will be departing the life of a student soon. OH LORD!! Friends tell me I'm straightforward to the point where I become blunt, but I think as long as its for your own good, I won't mind bearing the bad name of being harsh.
Dreamt of being: someone who will make it.
Fell in love with: Beautiful homes that I can imagine in my mind, Youtube, Lihong, and my friends - all over again.(I PUT U ALL SAME RANK AS LIHONG HOR!)
Coveted: my heart's desires
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As I wrote my meme, I imagine the next one to be when I'm 28? OK, freaking me out... Will I still want to be rich and famous? Actually, I don't need to be famous, I just don't want to be an unknown, with my heads buried elsewhere and not having a name attached to the face. (oh-oh.. you are that....cashier at NTUC counter 11!) But of course, the degree of famous-ness is relative.
I think I'm extremely materialistic, but of course I try to hide it, in case people see it and criticize me. Sometimes I succeed in hiding that side, sometimes I don't. I guess you are a close enuff friend, if you see my materalistic side. I'm not that proud that I'm materialistic, but at the same time, I feel we should never deny the fact that we want things. Things that involve money, power and status... things that are capable of bringing a little extra joy, albeit shortlived, into our lives. Now now, I totally understand that having more of something doesn't necessarily make us happier people...or maybe we will be happier than the rest of the world, for about 10minutes.
At the end of the day, I think it is still better to have more, than to have none at all. When you have more, at least you have choices, and with choices, you are empowered. I'm not saying things will be awesome, but at least you have a better shot at becoming what you wanan become.
With graduation looming in about 14 months, I need to start somewhere! You think 14 months is long? Lemme tell you a something... When I was 12 or 13, I have never ever thought I would eventually turn 21, and 2006 seemed like light years away. But a blink of an eye, and here we are today. Plus, I can already see 2007 waving at me! For now, I don't know what I'm gonna do, and how I'm gonna do it. After all, I'm someone who thinks alot but lacks the action plan to back up my thoughts.
Maybe things will unravel along the way, maybe they won't. And if things don't go our way, we will probably be patient and say 'ok I need to wait! good things happen to people who are patient!'. And we will, cos are still young... but what if things still don't happen when we are approaching our 30s? mid 30s? 40s? When will we settle for next best? When will we say..OK maybe I can't, and I won't be rich and famous... so I shall be contented with being a NTUC cashier? (not that there's anything wrong with being a cashier, its just an example). But how can I be contented, when it is so far from what I wanted in the first place? Am I contented cos I can't have what I want and therefore NEED to be contented with what I have? Is contentement due to lowered expectations and having no goals, or reaching goals that are readily accessible, a cause for celebration? Or should I say, when does contentment cross the line, to become resignation, and vice versa?
What do you think?