Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Que Sara Sara - 5:03 PM
I am seriously suffering from withdrawal symptoms from the holidays. I mean, why does time past by us so quickly when we're having fun and 3 times as slow when we're having not so much fun? Advanced math can't explain this phenomena and all I know is that it sucks.School started off with a not-so-good start today. I actually went to the wrong building for my Bio class. YES, thats right folks... Hong Ruoying is taking BIO!! No thanks to the American education system that thinks that everyone should at least have a little basic knowledge of every topic...I will have to sit thru lectures and get this, BIO LABS this sem. SIGH.
You all know what? When I'm here in school, I'll envision myself working in one of the country's most exciting cities in the future. I'll be young, beautiful, smart and powerful. I'll kick ass, for sure. But whenever I go home, I just want to stay there forever. And when I'm on the plane coming back, I'll visualize life away from home for good (if I want that career here nx time), and I don't think I can do that. I mean, I've already shifted, from my ideal city of New York to San Francisco on the west coast just cos its 6hrs nearer to home. I know la, I'm thinking far out when I might not even get anything... but its sometimes nice to daydream a little huh? So now I'm thinking of other cities I wouldn't mind working at as well...
1.5 years ago when I just reached the U.S, all I could think about was staying on in this country (however screwed up it is) after graduation. I would scorn the thought of going home after graduation, thinking that its loserly and that I 'couldn't make it'. But now, I think I HAVE grown up a little... I used to only see the FABULOUS, AWESOME and SPECTACULARs of the U.S, but after 1.5 yrs, I have seen the DISMAL, SCREWED UPs and BRUTALITY of Her too. So, now I say Que Sara Sara. Seriously, whats gonna happen is probably written in the cards already. Just that I, being Ms Drama Queen lurves to think far and beyond. *SIGH*
Come to think of it, home isn't that bad after all. I won't have to pay enormous taxes, crazy rent, I will have home cooked meals, family and friends, awesome food, BEAUTIFUL hair.....(only that I won't be able to fit into the clothes there la!) Although I wanted to get out after 18 years, I was never one to say stuff like Singapore sucks. I mean, its pretty spiteful and shows how immature you are when you say something like that. Yes maybe we aren't as exciting as New York, not as historical as Rome, not as cultural as Tokyo, not as relaxed as Melbourne nor as quaint as London, but COME ON... It IS, after all HOME. And yes, the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side. Wise men have said that in order to be successful, one has to push him/herself out of their comfort zone in other to challenge and triumph. Is that necessarily true? Must we sacrifice comfort for success and not enjoy both at the same time?
When our then PM Goh touched on the issue of Quitters and Stayers even before I left the country, I was already wondering whether I would be a Quitter or not. Not that I would be one on purpose, but if something alluring beckons, then why not? Quitter or Stayer, I don't know, but all I can say is I won't move 10000 miles away just so my son can escape NS. (that is totally wussy). But what I cannot stand is when young Singaporeans criticize everything in Singapore. From the weather to the education system to politics, some people are never satisfied. Yeah la, I mean things like weather NO ONE can help. And so I want to ask them, 'what suggestions do you have to the 'mistakes' u spot and are you willing to do what it takes to change things around?' And they all turn silent and mumble something about 'its THEIR job'.. like HARLOW? Ok stop complaining like as if someone owes u something k? Social-complaining is ok (u know, like the 'oh geez the weather is terrible today!'), but not excessive till a point that you sound almost depressed. Worse if you don't have anything constructive to contribute.
Anyway, on a happier note. Let me tell u all what I bought when I was in Singapore!
1) 2 Kose Sekkesei toner
2) 2 sets of Kose masks: Total of 10
3) 1 MISSHA mandarin orange peel-off mask
4) contact lenses and solution
5) 1 Bobbi Brown foundation in Sand 2.0
6) 1 Bobbi Brown blush in Desert Rose
7) 1 Bobbi Brown lipstick in some shade I can't remember
8) Hair mask and shampoo
HAHA... see where this is going? Yeah no tops skirts shoes bags...all cosmetics and skincare/haircare products!! OK I am jet lagged. My eyelids are hitting the floor. Signing off now with Winter 2005 pics! (i haven't uploaded some yet. v lazy. wait for those k?)
Top (L-R): Xinli&I, At drama's house for her bday, posign with Justina, with Kelly!
2nd: with Drama&Meishan, @ Andrea's house, Shiyun& Cecilia: NYE @ ChompChomp, hightea buffet with Shiyun@ Goodwood
3rd: KTV with HSBC peeps, Pri-sch friend Dingyi, fav Sporean food, Chompchomp
Bottom: COCA lunch buffet with Justina, CNY goodies in CHinatown!, Remmebering Orchard Road, KTV with Meishan
(note: I'VE DISCOVERED MY ANGLE! on the right side, as apparent in most of the above pics!)
You have my heart, Singapore! Hope to be home soon. =)