Wednesday, October 05, 2005
When September Ends - 6:25 PM
Haiyah, U all have to accept the fact that NOTHING ever happens in Lansing and since I'm not this delusional drama-mama who finds/fantasizes alot revolving around her....I won't be updating much LARH.BUTTTT... I just heard this song (call me slow or wad. i don't care) on the car to Chicago over the weekend... and I realised its all over radio hahaa.. u must understand I don't listen to radio anymore since the $5 cheaplak Walmart ley-lio (its radio; singlish style if you don't get it) failed me 8 months ago. But anyway, its quite nice la... so I'm gonna be extra generous and share the lyrics with all of u..
GREEN DAY- WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my father's come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when Septmber ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when Septmber ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when septmber ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when Septmber ends
Like my father's come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Yes, indeed...September has come and passed. My -gasp- 20th September! geez... October is here and will be continue to be here for another 25 days. Sometimes I think my life now is really yi tian guo yi tian.. (each day comes n goes), but actually.. everyone is also like that wad? I used to say 'my life will really start when I'm outta JC'... Okkkk so now i'm outta JC then wad? I'm still yi tian guo yi tian? haha.. so now I'm telling myself 'my life will REALLY start when I graduate'.
But first, I have to define 'life'. Aren't I living a life right now? But why doesn't it count?
So now I'm in college, chasing the lifestyle I want for myself in the future. What do I want? lets see...hmmmm (big bubble floating above my head..)
Scenario 1: Nice, chic loft in NYC, kick-ass career, Manolos, Chanel, a new nose (JUST KIDDIN!) and.... OH! A HUSBAND! But u see... its very hard to factor him in (so we'll take him out) cos I just don't think anyone can have it all..OKOK some people can, but come on... For every one person who succeeds in 'having it all,' how many people have failed in their quest to reach the same destination? Ok.. so under these circumstances when one strives for the bloody power status and morphs into a corporate whore, one has to give up something.. sad to say, relationships are usually the ones to be sacrificed. Then I'll end up as one of those people who will go 'I have a fabulous job, wonderful apartment...I'm on top of the world but something is lacking... BOOHOOHOO I need a man!!... boohoohooo...I'm gonna be just like one of those old ladies by the window with a cat by her side...boohoohoo' But... isn't that what I chose? What I want, I get.. still not contented?
Scenario 2: Forget the bloody career, be contented with being the stay-at-home Mom or average work slave (because face it, 80% of the people will end up like that.. so piah so hard for wad? the $$ all goes to rent/mortgage and taxes anyway. besides, WHO AM I TRYING TO IMPRESS?)... So if its like that, the FAMILY will come first, then relationships with other people... if there's time then I'll factor in the mediocre career...if not, I'll live in sweatpants cos have to take care of kids and PLEASEEE, unless u're Sarah Jessica Parker or Julianne Moore, you DON'T need to be in Jimmy Choos when u bring your kids to school. Oh, then I'll be living in the suburbs and life will STILL not be fulfilling. Cos I'll be like 'Everyone's out there doing something exciting while I'm....I'm making CHICKEN PIES! All I discuss with my friends are how their kids are doing in school and which brand of detergent gets the grass stains outta Ah Boy's soccer shirts best!....ARGHHH AH GIRL! WHY U GO N SPILL COKE ON MY COUCH?!!!.. AH BOY, TOLONG HOR tomorrow got piano lesson STILL DUN WANNA PRACTISE?!' -oh my god-... haha. But it might happen, and even then... my life is also considered a life mah? Cannot consider it NO LIFE right? Just that my life is no longer exclusive to myself...might make me a better person actually. hmmm.
Scenario 3: This is also known as the ideal scenario... which is also known as the SCENARIO-THAT-WILL-NV-MATERIALISE. But we have to remain optimistic. Will probably not happen to 95% of the people out there, but lets just cling to the tiny tiny chance of us being one of the lucky 5%. PERFECT career (earning $$$$, short working hours, lotsa holidays, medicare, great location, free parking spot, boss is totally lax.. ya u can dream on), PERFECT family (u know.. the one about the handsome, successful, decent and NONSTRAYING husband, 3 kids, a golden retriever), PERFECT relationships with people, PERFECT kids who look like angels, have PERFECT gpas and are perfectly STRAIGHT... PERFECT house (pool, garden, sauna, matching towels, perfect KITCHEN cos in this scenario, I am a domestic goddess who can cook a mean stew DESPITE being a career woman....so, NO maggi mee, NO mac n cheese, HAR? WHAT'S THAT? GARDENIA? sorry hor.. we ONLY eat freshly home-made bread.. WHOLE WHEAT, OF COS!)...PERFECT this, PERFECT that...wahh, THEN... life will be kick-ass. But hor, don't have to go on, you all already know its not happening. *Earth to my readers*!
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Let me leave u all with a quote... SO simple, yet so hard to figure out...had to rely on the brilliant J.K Rowling to enlighten us... here isit, from Albus Dumbledore to the famous 'Arry Potter.
"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities"
You know how we gasp at former classmates who are already mothers? We go 'SIAO AHH! wad baby?! how old only?!!'... oh well, thats their choice. or 'SIAO AH?!!! DON'T GO JC GO POLY?!'.. oh well, thats also their choice... or 'SIAO AHHHHH why you study so hard den now dun wanna practise law. Open wad gek (cake. haha) shop?!'... OH WELL... u know what I'm gonna say huh? ITS ALSO THEIR CHOICE.
Ahhh.. choices choices choices... As long as you don't hurt, burden, BLAME anyone when things eventually don't go as planned... go ahead. And pray for the best. If it is good enough for you, its certainly good enough for me.
Well, sorry huh. nothing to update so write about these kinda things lor. haha. I didn't mean to write so long, but still did.. Let me know what you people think! =)
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