Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Winning is not everything? - 9:52 PM
I thought the worst 5 mins of my life was when I was waiting in fear for my A level results. Well, guess what? STAIRMASTER brings to you a whole new level of torture. WAH LAU. only 5 mins on that darn thing that promises a perky and solid butt, I'm already panting n sweating like nobody's business...I haven't felt like that in a long, LONG time.Sometimes I think back on my Sec sch/JC days and one thing outshines EVERYTHING else. During those days, apart from getting to know lotsa wonderful people, gaining knowledge, etc...I was actually SOMEBODY. N that, came from being in Track n Field, the once-favourite sport of mine. hahaha. I spent 6 years in training, diligently no less, taking in all that inspiration talk about 'challenging yourself to new heights. setting realistic goals and conquering all odds'. I actually believed that stuff, and it DID helped me go places. Track n Field honed my leadership skills, from a very quiet (YES, QUIET) sec 1 green horn to an intimidating, firm but unbiased (at least i try) captain. Yep, I'm proud of myself. Those were the days when what I said counted, when I could lecture people until they cried, and I wouldn't care if they did... when I would just fold my arms and the girls would know that they should shut up and listen. GEEEE... guess that was the reason for my SUPER high self esteem then, ok and prob now too.
Do I miss those days? What I miss the MOST, is the winning. Not the people I know from there (sorry folks, I miss you guys too, but not THE MOST), not the healthier body (OH GAWD) that came with the countless training sessions, but the feeling of going into a competition and emerging victorious afterwards. That feeling is just.so.elevating, u know? With winning came the status of being the best out there, and yep, I've a huge ego. The thing is, everyone wants to win and enjoys winning. You know the thing about 'everyone being winners'? Well, guess what. To me, thats just something concocted outta pity and self-pity for/from the people who didn't win. In a competition, you either win, or lose. You either get an A, or a B. You either lose 10pounds, or you don't. If you win, great job, keep it up. If you don't, buck up and do better. 'I've done my best' - YEAH, I guess you did, but is that enough?
My ma always says 'don't compare yourself to the mediocre, you gotta compare yourself to the cream of the crop!' (when i always tell her 'but half the people failed math waddddd'). Math I probably can't help (hehe), but somethings I can. And I will. So, WATCH OUT, WORLD!
ok, I'll write about my very exciting Track n Field experiences some other day. Why would I wanna do that since its in the past? Cos I like reminiscing thats why. Cos I just want to, thats why. Cos they were exciting wad!!! so watch out for that! toodles~~